Thanks Norma, I'll email you after I've posted here.
Despite my beliefs I still find it hard. I got so upset because Al and his wife have worked hard all their lives and at the end of it they should be able to have a peaceful retirement. Instead they have been dogged by bad health these past few years, living in a run down house. I can only do so much and I have to realise that I can't 'fix' everything and everyone. These were their choices, I've stepped back from my family issues, they are all grown men but if they ask for my advice and help I will give it. My choice right now is to look after me.
I slept really well last night, though looking at the twisted covers on the bed I might have been a bit restless. I got up early, took the dog for a run, came home cleaned the kitchen and bathroom, swept off the leaves from the verandah and am now sat having my coffee. A friend will be here soon for her shower and to charge her puter and phone up (still no power out at her place) and its still not 8.00 a.m.
I want to get back to my dolls, the originals, the ones that have just been in Handmade have longer legs and bigger feet, the new ones seem to have evolved into shorter chubbier dolls. I have doll body parts all over the place and I have orders for 5 more. So I am going to try and make a long legged set and a chubby set and then people can choose which they prefer. Then I want to get started on something else, the robot and dinasaur are in the process of evolving, I'm going to change the patterns slightly. Its funny but when I first started doing amigurumi the creatures were smaller and stranger, I made them up as I went along and I never made the same thing twice. Now I think the inner control freak has taken over and they are becoming more 'normal'. Its markets at the end of the month, so I might try and get a few of the weirder smaller cats and bears done and just a couple of the dolls and see which people prefer.
I'm going to go pop a couple of slices of bread in the toaster and hope that today is not its day for burning everything to a crisp. Typical, its starts to go wrong just when its out of warranty.