Monday, January 3, 2011
This year I will be pondering on this quote before I purchase, feel or think anything. I will be looking at what I have in my life now and what I would like in my life. Do the things I have in my life make me happy............Yes, they do. For the past year the op-shops have benefited from me disposing of all the material things in my life that no longer gave me joy.
Friends , well, my friends are probably one of the most precious things in my life and they make me very happy. Everyone of them is unique and they each bring their own specialness to my life.
Family, I love my family. My sons, daughter-in-law and my wonderful little grandgirls. Sometimes they turn up when I'm not really in the mood for them, but my mood is always lifted by the time they leave.
My creativity. This gives me great joy. Though at the moment my joy is slightly diminished because of a block. I am sure though that that tiny spark that is still there will not go out and blaze fiercely once again.
My spirituality. I do not follow any organised religions. I worship where I stand at any particular moment. I feel the grace of God all around me, be it in the frozen food aisle of Coles or a misty morning by the lake. I believe in the laws of attraction and the golden rule.
MY home. Its not perfect but it protects and provides a warm, safe, welcoming environment for all that visit. I am happy with everything in it and if I am not then I try to improve or remove. It gives me joy.
Me. Heres the deal breaker. I'm daggy, saggy and baggy, frumpy, greying, bulging, stuck in a rut. Thats what I am unhappy with - ME. So do I remove or improve. Well since the angels are not ready to remove me just yet I guess I'd better improve.
I used to think I was happy being who I am - funny, a good friend, caring, honest, faithful etc etc etc, but there is always something holding me back. Yes, I am overweight but it really hasn't stopped me from doing anything I have wanted to do. If I really wanted to throw myself out of a plane then I wouldn't have let my weight stop me.
How will I improve ME.
1. Lose some weight - I lost 4 kgs before christmas, I haven't overeaten but those kg's and two extra ones have appeared on the scales. I haven't been doing the same amount of walking I used to do though due to a numb foot and pains in my leg. Waiting to see a doctor over that. So on the good days I will try and walk a little more, maybe eat slightly less.
2. Get my greying, frizzy, long hair sorted. 18 months ago I had a really nice cut, the best one ever, it was easy to manage and my hair looked good. I felt good. Time to feel that way again I think.
3. My clothes. If I find something that is comfortable I wear it to death. I hate buying new stuff. I always shop at op-shops or sales. So, I'm going to go out once a month and buy something NEW and pretty and something that makes me happy.
These three things are enough to get me started. I am not going to stress over the weeks when I lose nothing, I am not going to stress over my hair or my clothes. I am not going to stress over LACK.
I am happy with my lot in life. I choose to live my life in joy and gratitude.